con ayuda de google translate, quiero aprendir y practicar vocabulario.
no es facil, pero quiero intentar.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Friday, November 5, 2010
freewrite
It's been SO long since i've wanted to write. well, when i've been at the computer at least. i get the urge, but then get lazy. even though i keep a notepad with me at all times it takes some effort to pull it out of my bag an d stop a moment. to take a breath out of life instead of just trudging through on my way soemewhere else.
netflix lit up my nostalgia with Swan Princess. i really do think i'll be getting rid of cable. there are so many movies and tv shows i can watch commercial free, why should i bother with channels i jus t flip through to numb my mind? man, i love As Time Goes By.
Nice and easy weekend coming up. Going to see Billy Elliott tomorrow afternoon then figure out how i'm going to make a banner for the marathon runners on sunday. They will be right outside my window ^___^ streamers, shiney ribbons and some other things to welcome them to harlem.
i love supporting people that are striving for a goal. the structure gives me peace.
i'll try to write more this weekend - nice and easy.
netflix lit up my nostalgia with Swan Princess. i really do think i'll be getting rid of cable. there are so many movies and tv shows i can watch commercial free, why should i bother with channels i jus t flip through to numb my mind? man, i love As Time Goes By.
Nice and easy weekend coming up. Going to see Billy Elliott tomorrow afternoon then figure out how i'm going to make a banner for the marathon runners on sunday. They will be right outside my window ^___^ streamers, shiney ribbons and some other things to welcome them to harlem.
i love supporting people that are striving for a goal. the structure gives me peace.
i'll try to write more this weekend - nice and easy.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Focus (not so freewrite)
Okay... so, where will this career come from? Where should i lay my focus. There are a few things that make my heart leap that i could do for a living:
- Work in Anime/Manga promotions/marketing
- Become a singer
- Work in the Video Game industry
(perfect timing, Billy - The Stranger is just how this feels)
The jobs above are highly competitive, as am i. They also don't promise lots of money. But working hard, could i be happy with just that?
I find that i'm more fortunate than others and must help them when i can. is this an arrogant sentiment? Should i not feel that way and let that dictate where i want to take a possible career? Or should i learn from my previous relationship that i'm not really helping but spoiling others where they cannot help themselves?
should i take on a bit of selfishness and do something completely for me? i don't know if i'm ready for that. an opportunity has presented itself and i'll see how things turn out in October. ^_^
to sing would be wonderful, but my fears are these: this relies solely on the voice. should that go away, the career is done. also, temporary issues like cold sores, getting sick and other things that keep me away from performing can hurt my image which that industry depends on.
marketing anime and manga is almost as important as marketing new york city. the art work is amazing and it's a bridge across cultures that cannot be ignored. unless there is another war (let's not jinx it), this demand cannot be stopped. though marketing is very cut throat, unless there are wholesome companies out there that have some inch of compassion for who they are marketing to.
and of course video games, my other love would help get in my writing muscle. writing storylines for games would be absolutely amazing. it would be an honor for someone to play my story and enjoy it. though would i be crushed if they didn't?
it's a hard path to choose as i'd love to do them all. we'll see what happens in october. smooth and steady, patience rules all.
- Work in Anime/Manga promotions/marketing
- Become a singer
- Work in the Video Game industry
(perfect timing, Billy - The Stranger is just how this feels)
The jobs above are highly competitive, as am i. They also don't promise lots of money. But working hard, could i be happy with just that?
I find that i'm more fortunate than others and must help them when i can. is this an arrogant sentiment? Should i not feel that way and let that dictate where i want to take a possible career? Or should i learn from my previous relationship that i'm not really helping but spoiling others where they cannot help themselves?
should i take on a bit of selfishness and do something completely for me? i don't know if i'm ready for that. an opportunity has presented itself and i'll see how things turn out in October. ^_^
to sing would be wonderful, but my fears are these: this relies solely on the voice. should that go away, the career is done. also, temporary issues like cold sores, getting sick and other things that keep me away from performing can hurt my image which that industry depends on.
marketing anime and manga is almost as important as marketing new york city. the art work is amazing and it's a bridge across cultures that cannot be ignored. unless there is another war (let's not jinx it), this demand cannot be stopped. though marketing is very cut throat, unless there are wholesome companies out there that have some inch of compassion for who they are marketing to.
and of course video games, my other love would help get in my writing muscle. writing storylines for games would be absolutely amazing. it would be an honor for someone to play my story and enjoy it. though would i be crushed if they didn't?
it's a hard path to choose as i'd love to do them all. we'll see what happens in october. smooth and steady, patience rules all.
Monday, August 23, 2010
essay freewrite
i was in the shower when this idea came to mind. it really wasn't a new idea, but one that i've had for quite a while now. i've had a strong disagreement with the way children, and adults are being diagnosed with behavioral problems in the last 10 or so years. i guess it all started with the popularity of ADHD in the news and teachers that felt they had the right to diagnose children themselves. It started there and went onto other ailments that we see as "problems." My feeling is that maybe these instances could be human evolution. The problem is that our society, in it's need for permanence would never consider the possibility.
For starters, i'm not trying to make any medical statements, these are all pure observations of those around me and a few definitions i've looked up. My theories could be naive, and i understand there have been years of study to back up other facts, but as the title says, this is a freewrite and it's my blog. :P
Now if we look at ADHD on WebMD, there are several different symptoms that even the website says many children exhibit. There is a lengthy process to try to diagnose a child, and to rule out if any other major change in lifestyle may have led them to act a certain way. Wouldn't that mean it's almost impossible to detect if a child has these symptoms? Just to name them for the record, they are: fidgeting, trouble enjoying quiet activities, excessive talking, runs and climbs where not appropriate, blurting out an answer before the question is done, waiting for their turn, interrupting, careless mistakes at school, trouble focusing, trouble organizing activities, losing things needed for a project, etc.
It's always been my understanding that our parents and school teachers taught us these things. Parents taught proper manners and showed us how to wait our turn and how not to fidget. Quiet time was meant after a good play outside or fun time with friends and family. Running and climbing were to be done at the park when our parents took us there. We went to school to learn how to be organized, how to correct our mistakes, how to focus by doing fun things. With the busy lives of parents and underpaid school teachers, maybe that's not being done anymore.
Previous families used to have one person working and another to stay home. Children were looked after, had someone to help with homework and had a person they could talk to. Dinners were had all together, at the table, and the day was discussed over their meal. Now both parents work, they get home late, sometimes have the children fix dinner and talk about all the problems they had at work. Of course each scenario is different, but i feel like the harder the parents work to bring in money, the less time they have to work at being better parents.
Teachers are often times limited by their funding and the school's structure. For the generous teachers out there, some i had when i was younger, they did all they could to make class exciting and to cater their teaching style to the way the individual student learned. This is the largest problem i feel we have with the American school system. There is only one way to teach. If the child doesn't understand the material by using that one way, they will fail.
So where am i going with all this? I'm rounding my way over.
Parents have no time to teach their children on their own, so either a secondary person is offered, or no person at all. This leads a child to make up their own standard of learning and what each lesson is. They look to what's readily available - TV, Radio, the Internet and Video Games. This information is coming to them at such a pace, they need to change the way they think in order to try grasping this overload.
Imagine this year after year after year. With children with access to these resources getting younger and younger. Wouldn't you say this is a behavioral change to survive? What if ADHD was a way to absorb the information that's obviously infinite? We only pick out things that are important to US, and let all else slip away? What if our way of acting in public, the way we speak to people, treat them and teach them is no longer acceptible in this age of too much information.
There are probably some children who suffer so drastically from this that they may need medication. But we'd never truly know unless they were placed in an environment that accepts them and adapts to them. You never know, they may be the future.
For starters, i'm not trying to make any medical statements, these are all pure observations of those around me and a few definitions i've looked up. My theories could be naive, and i understand there have been years of study to back up other facts, but as the title says, this is a freewrite and it's my blog. :P
Now if we look at ADHD on WebMD, there are several different symptoms that even the website says many children exhibit. There is a lengthy process to try to diagnose a child, and to rule out if any other major change in lifestyle may have led them to act a certain way. Wouldn't that mean it's almost impossible to detect if a child has these symptoms? Just to name them for the record, they are: fidgeting, trouble enjoying quiet activities, excessive talking, runs and climbs where not appropriate, blurting out an answer before the question is done, waiting for their turn, interrupting, careless mistakes at school, trouble focusing, trouble organizing activities, losing things needed for a project, etc.
It's always been my understanding that our parents and school teachers taught us these things. Parents taught proper manners and showed us how to wait our turn and how not to fidget. Quiet time was meant after a good play outside or fun time with friends and family. Running and climbing were to be done at the park when our parents took us there. We went to school to learn how to be organized, how to correct our mistakes, how to focus by doing fun things. With the busy lives of parents and underpaid school teachers, maybe that's not being done anymore.
Previous families used to have one person working and another to stay home. Children were looked after, had someone to help with homework and had a person they could talk to. Dinners were had all together, at the table, and the day was discussed over their meal. Now both parents work, they get home late, sometimes have the children fix dinner and talk about all the problems they had at work. Of course each scenario is different, but i feel like the harder the parents work to bring in money, the less time they have to work at being better parents.
Teachers are often times limited by their funding and the school's structure. For the generous teachers out there, some i had when i was younger, they did all they could to make class exciting and to cater their teaching style to the way the individual student learned. This is the largest problem i feel we have with the American school system. There is only one way to teach. If the child doesn't understand the material by using that one way, they will fail.
So where am i going with all this? I'm rounding my way over.
Parents have no time to teach their children on their own, so either a secondary person is offered, or no person at all. This leads a child to make up their own standard of learning and what each lesson is. They look to what's readily available - TV, Radio, the Internet and Video Games. This information is coming to them at such a pace, they need to change the way they think in order to try grasping this overload.
Imagine this year after year after year. With children with access to these resources getting younger and younger. Wouldn't you say this is a behavioral change to survive? What if ADHD was a way to absorb the information that's obviously infinite? We only pick out things that are important to US, and let all else slip away? What if our way of acting in public, the way we speak to people, treat them and teach them is no longer acceptible in this age of too much information.
There are probably some children who suffer so drastically from this that they may need medication. But we'd never truly know unless they were placed in an environment that accepts them and adapts to them. You never know, they may be the future.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
communication is beautiful
Had one of the most meaningful conversations of my life today. I told someone how i feel for a change. He listened - he didn't yell, he didn't berate me, he didn't tell me what i was doing was wrong, he also didn't agree at times and said how he felt.
It was amazing!
Bleh.... that sounds so flat. I'm invigorated from our words. I feel ten times better than Maria when she was dancing in the dress shop. Things still have to be worked out, each of us has things we have to deal with, but we're doing it together and we're doing it in love.
That's all that matters.
May good communication spread to all of you out there.
~marj ^__^
It was amazing!
Bleh.... that sounds so flat. I'm invigorated from our words. I feel ten times better than Maria when she was dancing in the dress shop. Things still have to be worked out, each of us has things we have to deal with, but we're doing it together and we're doing it in love.
That's all that matters.
May good communication spread to all of you out there.
~marj ^__^
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Blogging...
It's been quite a while since posting here. With Facebook and other social sites, it's easier to instantly add pictures and comments and rants in one click. The need for immediacy renders the blog almost too time consuming for those with busy schedules.
For a while now, i've thought about settling down, trying to steer away from technology and go back to a simpler way of life. With my profession, it may seem impossible, but i'm trying to find the time and resources to do it.
Here's what i've been up to lately.
Just joined the Tenant's Association at my apartment complex. Since i've signed on for another year's lease, i think i'd like to participate more in what goes on around me at home. I've gone to some of their meetings already and it looks like we may get some work done this year.
One of the members of the executive board has also set up mentoring programs for young men. He received interest from women as well and i've signed up for that too. I consider myself a successful professional. I also come from a mixed ethnic background and can relate to some and share my experiences with others. If i can show 1 person that working just a little harder than average will get them soaring, just imagine what they'll do when they go above and beyond?
I've also joined an arts and craft Meetup group that donates their creations to different charities and organizations. This will help me schedule some time around work and get me out of the office so i can do the things i really enjoy. I don't want work to consume me any more.
Every weekend i will also try to attend the crochet meetups in my neighborhood. I always have fun when i go and it's a shame when they meet by my apartment and i can't make it.
I'm not trying to brag or display anything other than my need to do something more with the resources only i have to give.
Even though i post all this with some edits, i still feel i can speak more freely here than on any other site. Writing in diaries has always been with me. You can't tweet that.
^_^
For a while now, i've thought about settling down, trying to steer away from technology and go back to a simpler way of life. With my profession, it may seem impossible, but i'm trying to find the time and resources to do it.
Here's what i've been up to lately.
Just joined the Tenant's Association at my apartment complex. Since i've signed on for another year's lease, i think i'd like to participate more in what goes on around me at home. I've gone to some of their meetings already and it looks like we may get some work done this year.
One of the members of the executive board has also set up mentoring programs for young men. He received interest from women as well and i've signed up for that too. I consider myself a successful professional. I also come from a mixed ethnic background and can relate to some and share my experiences with others. If i can show 1 person that working just a little harder than average will get them soaring, just imagine what they'll do when they go above and beyond?
I've also joined an arts and craft Meetup group that donates their creations to different charities and organizations. This will help me schedule some time around work and get me out of the office so i can do the things i really enjoy. I don't want work to consume me any more.
Every weekend i will also try to attend the crochet meetups in my neighborhood. I always have fun when i go and it's a shame when they meet by my apartment and i can't make it.
I'm not trying to brag or display anything other than my need to do something more with the resources only i have to give.
Even though i post all this with some edits, i still feel i can speak more freely here than on any other site. Writing in diaries has always been with me. You can't tweet that.
^_^
Saturday, January 23, 2010
2010 - First Post
Strange how writing in this blog doesn't give the same sense of "spilling" my guts anymore. The use of MySpace, then Facebook really took the place of writing longer, more meaningful posts here. Perhaps the need for attention was better fulfilled through the other networking sites.
Writing... writing has been on my mind, more so than usual, but the want and will has seemed to leave again. But it's like going to the gym. If you don't go at first, you'll just end up paying month to month without using any of the equipment. When you DO go, you can start a schedule, get used to going and really make use of the money you're spending. I suppose i'm fortunate that i can be in a position to have that decision to make. I really shouldn't take advantage and waste money that way.
There are several things i want to do for myself this year. They are not really new year's resolutions because i plan on taking action with each:
- go to the library more
- practice my violin
- join a choir
- start up bowling in a league again
- take better care of myself
- write more (if not something every day)
- sleep more
- enjoy life more...
There are so many things around me that i see with limited view. Sure, i can find the simple pleasures in them, but i give excuses of why i can't find out more about them. Why i can't make a story of an inspiring stairwell. Why a bold red door wouldn't be enough to write someone's back story.
I HAVE TO KEEP WRITING. My heart craves to get the stories from my head on paper, but my brain wants them all to herself. She wants to live in the fantasy of having several situations to be in and feelings to experience. I really want to share all that with the world. Then the editor in me comes in to take away the creativity by claiming there are limitations and copyrights and so forth and so on.
i want to create things. Sure they've been created before, but not by me, not in the way i would create it. that's what would make it special. that's what would make it enjoyable for all. I just have to keep on myself.
Dave encourages me to write. He knows how much it means to me and he reminds me (so far it's only been once) but i love him so much for it. Can i hope that someone has really come to accept me, in all my faults? Wow... shows what's really on my mind.
i only hope i offer as much and he doesn't tire of my ways. to have another get bored with me would be.... i'd devote my entire life to service.
Didn't mean for this to be so dramatic, but writing brings out the things that sometimes i don't even want to admit. And with that weight slightly off my shoulders, i bid all a good night.
Writing... writing has been on my mind, more so than usual, but the want and will has seemed to leave again. But it's like going to the gym. If you don't go at first, you'll just end up paying month to month without using any of the equipment. When you DO go, you can start a schedule, get used to going and really make use of the money you're spending. I suppose i'm fortunate that i can be in a position to have that decision to make. I really shouldn't take advantage and waste money that way.
There are several things i want to do for myself this year. They are not really new year's resolutions because i plan on taking action with each:
- go to the library more
- practice my violin
- join a choir
- start up bowling in a league again
- take better care of myself
- write more (if not something every day)
- sleep more
- enjoy life more...
There are so many things around me that i see with limited view. Sure, i can find the simple pleasures in them, but i give excuses of why i can't find out more about them. Why i can't make a story of an inspiring stairwell. Why a bold red door wouldn't be enough to write someone's back story.
I HAVE TO KEEP WRITING. My heart craves to get the stories from my head on paper, but my brain wants them all to herself. She wants to live in the fantasy of having several situations to be in and feelings to experience. I really want to share all that with the world. Then the editor in me comes in to take away the creativity by claiming there are limitations and copyrights and so forth and so on.
i want to create things. Sure they've been created before, but not by me, not in the way i would create it. that's what would make it special. that's what would make it enjoyable for all. I just have to keep on myself.
Dave encourages me to write. He knows how much it means to me and he reminds me (so far it's only been once) but i love him so much for it. Can i hope that someone has really come to accept me, in all my faults? Wow... shows what's really on my mind.
i only hope i offer as much and he doesn't tire of my ways. to have another get bored with me would be.... i'd devote my entire life to service.
Didn't mean for this to be so dramatic, but writing brings out the things that sometimes i don't even want to admit. And with that weight slightly off my shoulders, i bid all a good night.
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